Monday, September 10, 2012
In Sickness...
As most of you know I have been in incredible pain, unable to eat, drink, or even to sleep. I managed to lose 8 pounds in this unknown pain. And although I am slowly gaining the ability to eat and drink something plagues me. Searching for the answers, because let's just be honest I have nothing else to do with my "resting" time, but to reflect on my actions and reactions. Maybe I am the root of this pain- this gnarling in my gut- what does it mean for me? Who am I supposed to be and where do I finally find the answers or the peace to know- I anxiously await the concrete solution because until then I feel in limbo- hurting myself and those that I love. That, alone, is what forces me to forge through.
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I think journaling will help you here. Working out your kinks on paper is sometimes more therapeutic than any medication. I know it's easier to turtle up and go into your shell (I'm a professional shell dweller), but reaching out and letting those who love you (ME!, your family, etc.) help is actually more beneficial than you think. It's hard to put yourself out there, but worth it. I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time, but life will start ironing out soon. I promise.
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